27 Novembre 2003, Thursday.
A little depress bcoz initially plan to back to KL early so that I can finish the rest of my stuff... but yup, i was back to KL, but seems like so lazy to start working... so lepak-lepak n wasting time... i'm not ready to start my work up until now... may b noone is around to motivate me.. hehe..

My frens who are still on holiday right now.. wish u all happy holiday!

Re: HSBC headache.....

It's now or never.. My fren participated in it last year n she made her team into second round too. But unfortunately, her team is eliminated due to their business plan is not meet hsbc's requirement. Her teammate was too blur and missed some pages of business plan for submission. Thus, they couldn't get even the RM1000.

I hope tat this will never happen to us...

To all our frens, we will Gambathe! Let's gain a better place for Ipoh Tauges.

HSBC headache....

Hahaha, maybe some of us didn't know.... the team Ipoh Tauges of Kar Kin, Teong and myself has made it to Round 2 of the Young IT Entrepreneur Awards. We attended a very good business plan workshop today, the talk is good, and the food is better...haha...

but now, I have more work than before....

anyway, it has been a good BUSINESS exposure for a lowly medical student like me.

I hope Teong shall blog about the motivation(code:MMU) to beat others to Round 3....

Amen to that, Boon Teong.

For the past few weeks, God has been profoundly present in my walk. He is really faithful, never giving up on me. The only right thing I should do is not to give up on Him.

King Solomon who had it all, thousands of concubines, gold, and everything = huge success - finds everything under the sun meaningless, a grasping for the wind....
it will only churns out real meaning when we have the fear of the Lord, for the fear of God is the beginning of wisdom....

I am slowly going back strongly to God, whom I have put below other priorities, whom I have doubted many times, whom I have not defended many times.....but God clings on to me.... and He has touched me, really.

To my friends who have yet to know this God, I want to tell you about Him, at least that is what a friend should do. God, the one who created us, who gave us life, and provide for us...is the one we should believe in... not other gods like money, success, sex, fame, glamour, etc.

Orientate Disorientation


Measuring Success
To me, in God's will and sight, the word success never exists. In fact, God doesn't need His success to be measured. It's beyond your and my imagination. Success came into the world with The Fall of Man. Sad. Devastating. Man began to pursue success. Success has since then, become the gauge of one's ability and strength. The first attempt to parade a huge success in history, The Tower of Babel, fell and was utterly destroyed.

Man is living not in control of himself. Man is just a creation. What you and I are having can be taken away in a matter of no time. A creation is supposed to obey and carry out duties according to the Master's will. For this very fact, there is a purpose, which I am still seeking, for me to be on this earth.

By sheer grace, I have what I have now, I possess what I possess now, mentaly, spiritually and physically. One might not be a Billy Graham, having a great success story, but one might be the one who brings up a Billy Graham, a great success story which will never be made known widely.

Contrastive
Opinions differ, so as feelings, thoughts, ambitions and dreams. I, humbly and seriously, believe in myself. At least I have faith and trust in the Almighty that He is helping and guiding me to doing accordingly and not taking and given assets just for granted. Success is not mine but His. All that I have and am going to have are of sheer divine grace and favour from God.

Doesn't mean that I need neither work nor struggle nor strive nor battle nor sweat nor labour. I know how much grace and knowing the will of God, will bring a greater joy in my life; not any results of hardwork will be able to provide.

In short, I am no longer looking at being successful in professional world as heavy as I used to be, at least for now. God's timing will tell it all.

"I am found, to find another
I am told, to tell another
I am won, to win another
I am saved, to save another"

Bonjour!
Pam: yes, some of our geng will finish their final semester, including me.. The future is still uncertain. If look into ur situation, I oso know tat sometimes u might face the same problem.. Anyway, what we can do is just do watever tat is within our ability. Don't put too expectations (which are expected by others) on urself. This might become stress! A doctor's responsiblity is high undoubtedly. But, don't be shame to get others' advice and guidance for ur next 2 year, and the future of being a good doctor.

Teong: let me be frank about some of attitude tat should make better. Sifoo, in my opinion, if u treat things serious and be more responsible with any stuffs with u, u surely will be more successful! Don't waste ur intelligence and wisdom. You are among the person who is talented, but problem is about ur "acuh-tak-acuh" attitude. Work hard, sifoo!

Ben: why u face the same thing like pam? Does anyone among our 6AA fren so like that?

Ennie: Long time din c u oso.. How r u? Any news from chee yen? Long time din c him lah since his last time came to UM..

Piercere!

suddenly it seems that only teong and pam exist in this world. hehe...i'm guilty as charged. I rarely check this page.
hey pam, am going to call tomorrow cos i heard kok ming is coming back tomorrow. but now that u're already back i;ll give u a call earlier. really want to catch up with u. it's been a long time since i saw u.
anyway, i'm still in ipoh...cos my sem hasn't started yet. ukm extended the break till after raya. so, i'll be here till dec. so anyone in ipoh can give me a call.

Entanglement

I think and think and I think. Most of the time, I made a lot of foolish, immature, silly, sissy, empty-headed, light-minded, superficial and volatile decisions. In the end of the day, I caused a lot conflict, strife, difference, agitation, letdown, setback, misfortune, displeasure, despondency, disenchanment and disgruntlement (and many more negative adjectives you can think of) between me and people. In short, I really feel that I am a total failure in decision making! Stupid, irresponsible and immature I am! A fool of myself. Teong O Teong, why just can't you make up your mind seriously and wisely! I am, no joking, having a lot of flaws and problems in making up my mind even in a small matter.

"its quite unbelievable dat three yrs has passed. some od the classmates are doing their final yr now. me .... i got 2 more yrs to go. after dat......the future is so vague. the prospect of working is scary. i mean in two yrs i'll be 'toying' with ppls life. one wrong move and pooof... a life is lost. dunno whether i'm ready for dat or not"
how true!!!! exactly what i've been feeling all these while...i've been wondering, m i in the rite path??
anyway i'll be going home tonight...finally...i wanted to stay in the campus longer to catch up on things which i've left out but..finally..tak tahan...

its been quite sometime since i blogged. having a honeymoon time now. doing minor posting. no exams . yae........killing time by playing RPG in frens room. its quite unbelievable dat three yrs has passed. some od the classmates are doing their final yr now. me .... i got 2 more yrs to go. after dat......the future is so vague. the prospect of working is scary. i mean in two yrs i'll be 'toying' with ppls life. one wrong move and pooof... a life is lost. dunno whether i'm ready for dat or not. still got two more yrs to equip myself. Pam, good to c u blogging

The End...

3 weeks are almost up! And this signifies the last long study break for me. The next long break I am having will be said in term of unemployment period. 3 years in UM; at first it seemed as a long period of time, spanning 6 semesters and a 5-month industrial training. Wow! But now, I am reluctant to leave study life.

Work?! Gosh!! When I am studying, during holidays, I can just simply come back to my sweet home here in Ipoh. Eat breakfast, watch Astro, wake up early in the morning on Tuesdays and Wednesdays to watch the Champions' League live matches (especially when Juventus are playing), go anywhere anytime I wish.

But work?! Is such freedom still exist?! DEFINITELY NO MORE!! Unless I am a big boss of a company and to be one big boss, it is going to take me years or perhaps decades. This also depends on how well I can handle myself, how smart I am in the working arena to achieve such a success. Furthermore, getting a good job (in terms of paid and opportunities) aint easy nowadays.

In short, it is a long long hard way to go man! A big S-I-G-H!

Besides staying at home for 90% of the time during this break watching TV, anime series downloaded from Kazaa while I was still in PJ (just need to mention that Naruto is great), and yeah Matrix 1 and 2 (yeah, just watched them!), sleeping and eating, I did meet and go for drinks with old friends, especially Beng Kuin and Alan Lee. Once a while, with Chong Yit and Chee Meng too.

Not to leave out the Big Thing also. I was there. Spent an amount of time too enhancing, learning, and picking up some web programming knowledge in HTML, CSS, and ASP.NET. A big let down was, I didn't manage to really force myself to learn Java and Matlab in depth. I will be using both tools or languages to program/build my final year project (thesis).

Since, my knowledge in Java is still not up to a beginner's level, I am forseeing constraints (time and competence) to catch up with Java API, Java Swing and Matlab interconnectivity with Java. I am putting my 5 credit-hour Thesis 2 at a high risk of failure! Moreover, I don't have any idea at all on how to begin my coding phase! That's disastrous man!

And thus... I need to pack my things again and say bye-bye to my home and Ipoh once again!

hehe..hi everyone!!
bt:sorry a..i just realise that rupa-rupanya i already registered long ago liao o :p

Last week manage to have a trip tp kelantan... 4 days 3 nite there.. manage to meet frens like Kok Ming, Pamela.. but regret tat i couldn't meet up with Shu Yee while she was in Kubang Kerian.. This is because KM said tat she was back to ipoh.. Sigh!

Stayed at my rommate house, BunHin.. at Kg Jelawat.. thanks to him because bring me to lots of places... his kampung nearby, pantai irama, tokong2 at tumpat, n we paid a visit to my German fren at Kuala Krai...

Although now is the raining season.. mujurnya at my time there was sunny day.. hihi..

Eat lots of fruits... like rambutan, langsat, ciku, watermelon etc.. kampung area really got lots of dusun.. jalan2 boleh pick n eat straight away,..